As the Lord sanctifies my past and restores my heart from all the pain it received as I was growing up. Therefore I grew up thinking I knew who I am, but as I journey with the Lord and as He redeems me, He is slowly showing to me my real personality. The personality that does not reacts merely to situations but who I am really as a person with or without the situations around me.
When the Lord purposely Orchestrated that I am to travel with someone, someone who is more emotional than me and more clingy! That's when I realized how I prefer a relationship that is relax and just moves as the river flows.
At first, when I was traveling with my fellow believer in Christ, we were excited and it felt like a white water rafting sort of experience in our relationship. The Lord was revealing a lot of things to us and we get to enjoy the amazing view as we enjoy the turbulent ride! Why turbulent? Because God will sift and shake the believer to bring out the uglies! That way He can sanctify or clean or destroy those impurities in us.
As the process continues for almost a month now, I realized that my earthen body can't keep up with the fast phase activity and it's now feeling the toll of the journey or battle. Now, we are both tired, and at least I can say for myself that I want some alone time, so I can quietly rest from the whole thing.
Where will I go? I want to rest in the arms of my Lord Jesus. And with Psalm 23 in my mind and heart, I press on trusting my Good Shepherd:
Psalm 23:1-6 NASBS
[1] The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not want. [2] He makes me lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside quiet waters. [3] He restores my soul; He guides me in the paths of righteousness For His name's sake. [4] Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I fear no evil, for You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me. [5] You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; You have anointed my head with oil; My cup overflows. [6] Surely goodness and lovingkindness will follow me all the days of my life, And I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.